Tuesday, August 26, 2003
rick is one crazy motherfucker, but good luck to his dear dear soul. he's going off in search of some adventures, and i'm sure he'll find them. of course, i'm totally w/ jen in being concerned about his safety, but i just gotta give people the benefit of the doubt on this, and trust that they'll bring him back to us safe and sound, brimming full of awesome stories. i have faith (in both him and in people in general). and i'm really excited for him! i really wish i had both the balls and the means to take off and do something adventurous like that. but alas, for now i'll settle for living vicariously through rick. all the best, mon ami !

posted at 9:57 PM

Thursday, August 21, 2003

ROAD TRIP!!!!

posted at 9:08 PM

Sunday, August 03, 2003

i just got back from fred 62 w/ jordan and tonya. haha, tonya says i should date girls now so she can have a lesbian buddy. and jordan offered to take us to hustler so we can each get ourselves a vibrator. haha. i'm in surprisingly high spirits right now. oh, and tomorrow is my usc interview! wish me luck!

posted at 10:33 PM

that thing you do ~ the wonders

you doin' that thing you do
breaking my heart into a million pieces like you always do
and you don't mean to be cruel
you never even knew about the heartache
I've been going through
well I try and try to forget you girl
but it's just so hard to do
every time you do that thing you do

I know all the games you play
and I'm gonna find a way to let you know that you'll be mine someday
cause we could be happy can't you see
if you'd only let me be the one to hold you
and keep you here with me
cause I try and try to forget you girl
but it's just so hard to do
every time you do that thing you do

I don't ask a lot girl
but I know one thing's for sure
it's the love I haven't got girl
and I just can't take it anymore

cause we could be happy can't you see
if you'd only let me be the one to hold you and keep you here with me
cause it hurts me so just to see you go
around with someone new
and if I know you you're doing that thing
every day just doing that thing
I can't take you doing that thing you do

posted at 4:26 PM

this is how i feel right now.

didn't have such a good night last night and right now i still feel just...bad. that constant feeling of having a knot stuck in my throat is back. been fighting back tears since last night. let a whole lot of them go before i went to bed. now i'm back to fighting them again.

anyway, i know i've been ignoring this thing for a long time now. it's just been bad enough feeling all this. trying to form it all into words would require so much more energy. i feel it coming soon, tho. i need to let it all out. but first i have to do laundry. down to my last pair of underwear. bad.

posted at 2:30 PM